To myself... I apologize. To everyone else... I apologize. There are times every one needs to change and in doing so admit their faults most importantly, to themselves. There was something relatively minor said earlier today and my reaction, albeit minor, was enough to make me think, even hours later. For some reason, it just stuck in my head and it's truly making me do some "soul searching", so to speak. Honestly, it's because of a culmination of things, mostly internal, over the past few years and realizing that's not who I want to be. Changing will be a HUGE, HUGE struggle, but it must be done and I want to do so. Now, it's just a matter of figuring out what tools I need and keeping up the internal motivation.