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docderison

DocDerision aka "Eli"

21 year old Female
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Last online over 2 years ago
Sheboygan, WI
docderison
"Who can relate WOOo!" - Logic (suicide song 800-273-8255). [Pre-Chorus: Logic] I've been on the low, I been taking my time I feel like I'm out of my mind It feel like my life ain't mine (Who can relate? Woo) I've been on the low, I been taking my time I feel like I'm out of my mind It feel like my life ain't mine [Chorus: Logic] I don't wanna be alive, I don't wanna be alive I just wanna die today, I just wanna die I don't wanna be alive, I don't wanna be alive I just wanna die And let me tell you why [Verse 1: Logic] All this other shit I'm talkin' 'bout, they think they know it I've been praying for somebody to save me, no one's heroic And my life don't even matter, I know it, I know it I know I'm hurting deep down, but can't show it I never had a place to call my own I never had a home, ain't nobody callin' my phone Where you been? Where you at? What's on your mind? They say every life precious but nobody care about mine [Pre-Chorus: Logic] I've been on the low, I been taking my time I feel like I'm out of my mind It feel like my life ain't mine (Who can relate? Woo) I've been on the low, I been taking my time I feel like I'm out of my mind It feel like my life ain't mine [Chorus: Logic] I want you to be alive, I want you to be alive You don't gotta die today, you don't gotta die I want you to be alive, I want you to be alive You don't gotta die, now let me tell you why [Verse 2: Alessia Cara] It's the very first breath when your head's been drowning underwater And it's the lightness in the air when you're there chest-to-chest with a lover It's holding on, though the road's long, seeing light in the darkest things And when you stare at your reflection, finally knowing who it is I know that you'll thank God you did [Verse 3: Logic] I know where you been, where you are, where you goin' I know you're the reason I believe in life What's the day without a little night? I'm just tryna shed a little light It can be hard It can be so hard But you gotta live right now You got everything to give right now [Pre-Chorus: Logic] I've been on the low, I been taking my time I feel like I'm out of my mind It feel like my life ain't mine (Who can relate? Woo) I've been on the low, I been taking my time I feel like I'm out of my mind It feel like my life ain't mine [Chorus: Logic] I finally wanna be alive, I finally wanna be alive I don't wanna die today, I don't wanna die I finally wanna be alive, I finally wanna be alive I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die [Outro: Khalid] Pain don't hurt the same, I know The lane I travel feels alone But I'm moving 'til my legs give out And I see my tears melt in the snow But I don't wanna cry, I don't wanna cry anymore I wanna feel alive, I don't even wanna die anymore Oh, I don't wanna I don't wanna I don't even wanna die anymore
kuharido
Jan 20, 22 at 1:48pm
@momoichi https://i.ibb.co/jZ0bgBM/kuroki-tomoko-and-joker-watashi-ga-motenai-no-wa-dou-kangaetemo-omaera-ga-warui-and-3-more-drawn-by.png
docderison
I agree, didn't read the entire thing though. /srs r/wholesome
gabriel_true
That's the thing about jurors is that it's difficult to find a single person that doesn't have a bias. - Sexual abuse is common and expecting no one to have experienced that trauma can be like asking for a miracle. - Also this lady, who probably is a victim in her own right, still acted complacent during the crime. - It's impossible for me to know the exact experience Ghislaine went through, however she was the only one who could choose to do what she did. - That's something she'll need to reflect on for the rest of her life. - What's left of it because I'm confident there's someone that was sitting in that court that's more a threat to her life than a biased jury. - The same someone who probably paid Jeff his last visitation right before death. - How high profile cases like this potentially compromising world leaders and powerful families tend to go.
docderison
i cant read this
projectotakux
E X I T T U N E S P R E S E N T S: V o c a l o c o n n e c t i o n f e a t. 初音ミク
docderison
This is really cool, didn't read it all though. r/wholesome
mrkingofspades
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UI6oQ8Lgf2U So, this song tells the story of an old Russian Czar, "Peter the Great", or Pyotr Alekséyevich. His reign lasted from 1682 to 1725. There's a tale about how Pytor found his wife Catherine sleeping with her secretary, Willem Mons, and how Pytor sentenced Mons to death. Not only was Mons sentenced to death, but he was publicly decapitated at the gallows. Story goes that Pyotr had Mons's severed head preserved in a jar and put on display in a musuem (The Kunstkamera) and forced his wife to gaze at the exhibit for hours on end. Now, this story may or may not be true, or exaggerated in some ways, but that doesn't change the intrigue of the song. Bad Books, as a band, are very hit and miss to me. I like most of their music on some level, and they're one of the more interesting bands in this type of indie-rock scene, but they have a few songs that hit different; Pyotr is one of them. They know how to set the tone of sadness better than most. This song, along with a few others I will mention later, particularly tug at my emotional heart strings. It's not just the lyrics that depict this sick and twisted story in such a captivating, multi-perspective, deeply emotionally and connected way, but it's the mournful, lonely acoustic that fits this tale perfectly. Maybe it's the way I can relate to the anger of feeling betrayed by a loved one, and especially in the depiction of this song where Pyotr feels almost like he's nothing in comparison to Katherine's true lover. I know I've felt that same way, although I don't think I'd ever be sick enough to display the lover's severed head in a glass contained for my love to gaze upon, but I digress. Some of the lines here strike the heart in such a rough way. Pyotr: "I know you would gaze in his eyes forever, I figured out just how to give that to you", it's such a twisted and depressing line. This line from Pyotr expresses both the thought of feeling worthless to your loved one, and the tick of psychotic anger to me. Hearing this line after knowing the story changes its tone even more. Mons: "And I tell you in the heat of the scuffle, 'nobody ever takes my eyes off of you'", knowing that he's preserved in a jar, there to constantly glare at Catherine, and any passerby's, for the rest of time (I mean until the head is gone of course) just makes this line kind of terrifying. Pytor: "Just you and your lover as a dark souvenir." The entire ending lyrics, from the perspective of Mons's head, are incredibly haunting and depressing. "Strokes her blistered hand across my glass container, saying 'it's so good to see you back here again'." This wreaks of a mournful, heartbroken, woman in denial of her lover's death, desperately trying to recreate his presence in the room. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=euL_owT305g I won't go in depth here, but this is another one that tugs at my heart strings. The line "When a man loves a drink more than blood" (from a perspective of family) hurts on so many levels. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_3YZfx144Jk Then there's this track. This whole thing is just sorrowful, yet incredible. Kevin Devine's vocals on this song are some of his best. The short duet/harmony towards the end of this song is the perfect way to wrap up this particular album that finishes on an emotional note. Hope you guys enjoy these tracks. I'm thinking about making a video for the next band I'd like to admire on here, but I kind of hate the sound of my own voice, so we'll see how that goes. If I do, and sum up some courage, I hope it's ok to post the video in here.
docderison
I wish that were me, JK this movie is awesome. /srs
burninghalo
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tm7dgVyQB3U
docderison
Funny, but it's 2022 so I don't understand.
docderison
Nice bunny, I don't get it though.
milkshakes
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This one is for mariahiyori @leilum! ❤
docderison
Funny but I don't get it.
origami_girl99
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On learning japanese
docderison
Hey girls! I'm single and ready to mingle xD. Jk I'm chill af just dm me.