Getting older I understand that life isn't like fairy tails there's no prince to sweep you off your feet no nothing.. As what you think is a prince in shining armor is a loser in tinfoil having intercourse with everyone but you.
I’m sorry that I haven’t been doing the best lately. My days consist of constant anxiety and my nights are filled with tossing and turning, trying to fall asleep so I can escape for just a little while. No matter what I try, this feeling just won’t go away. It consumes every second of everyday. I can’t live like this. I am falling apart and the people around me aren’t even realizing it. I used to never cry. I would stare at the wall filled with sadness, but no tears would come out. Now, I cry too much. Most of the time, it’s out of frustration. I can’t figure out what’s wrong with me and it’s making my life a living hell. This one life I have is being poisoned by my own mind. How do you escape something that is a part of you?
Nothing wrong with feeling like that, people just feel the need to interject with their bullshit.
They say "time heals", but even now ... I know that's a lie. What people really mean is that eventually you'll get used to the pain. You'll forget who you were without it; you'll forget what you looked like without your scars.
I closed my eyes again, taking a deep breath, trying to force a peace i didn't feel.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Sleep doesn't help if it's your soul that is tired.~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Getting <3attached<3 to someone is realy scary.
They can leave anytime, and the pain you feel is almost unbearable.
Recently one of my friends stop talking to me it just adds a few more minutes to my daily crying session where when I get home I slouch over my bed and ball my eyes out it feels so nice but my heart hurts
It gives me the stamina to go back as the happy optimistic person I usually am I have perfected "the smile" where I smile on the outside and say I'm fine when inside I'm debating if I should kill myself today or tomorrow