I don't want a long distance fling/crush. I want something real. I want to spend the rest of my life with someone. I want to grow old with someone. I don't want someone to be interested in my solely because I'm attractive/"cute". Looks fade. People age. I want someone to be interested in me because they genuinely like me. Someone asked me "Do you love me?" and I'm like "Dude, I just met you. I hardly know you, and we've only be talking for 5 minutes. No. I don't love you. Can I grow to love you overtime? Yes, but again that takes time". Love isn't instant. You grow to love someone. If you "love" someone after only 5 minutes. That's not love my friend. That's lust. I shit you not I asked someone I was "dating" and asked them "Why do you like me?" and they couldn't list a single attribute about me except for "you are cute" and I'm like "I could list off a minimum of 5 things I like about you and all you have is "you are cute" really? You don't like my personality? You don't like my humor? You don't like anything but my looks? Really? What superficial garbage is this? Looks mean absolutely nothing if the personality of the two people don't mix. I just felt objectified after that. I'm more than just my looks. I have hobbies and skills, and a work ethic. And I snort when I laugh, and I hate peaches. I'm not a sex object. I'm a person.
Should I just deactivate/delete my account? Nobody messages me. I'm rarely on because nobody messages me. Nobody's interested in me and I feel like I'm just wasting my time here.
Bought some foundation and new concealer. Wish me luck.
Tried buying foundation and then got a message saying it was unavailable. Bro what? I payed tor that. I got concealer and it's too dark/orange on me. T_T
Some guy: Do you think God stays in heaven because he too lives in fear of what he's created?
Me: No. Considering God has killed millions of people, I doubt he fears anything, let alone people. God could end the world without batting a eye.
I want to buy some makeup but there are so many choices. X___X
I'm already seeing Halloween stuff.
I wanna get some piercings.