Long bio incoming... You've been warned.
Favorite Hobby: Drawing (formerly), Making music (formerly), Voice acting (on hiatus), writing/lore building (currently), video games (barely)
Favorite Color: Blue, but also black and red
Favorite Food: Lasagna
Kinks: Too many to count. Including one's usually have a hard "NOPE!" to. It makes dating a challenge just finding someone who will at least tolerate
Self Description (Appearance, personality, personal life, things you like, ect):
- Appearance: I'm an average height of 5'9" with a "skinny fat" build, but I'm working to build a better physique. If one were to look at me, I look like a normal person, but in reality, I have a few disabilities that are not immediately noticeable. I have scoliosis, and although I had surgery to correct it, I still have curvature in my lower back. I have disabilities affecting my right arm and hand, which I would prefer to not worsen, lest I lose my limb, but only time will tell. So far, the disability plaguing my hand is slowly taking away my ability to use my fingers and with time... my ability to draw, though I no longer do...
- Personality: Admittedly, I've been a gloomy person and it's shown a lot. It's unfortunately led people to believe that being negative is my only personality trait, but given my past and even my current history, it's not surprising. Still, it's not the only side of me, even if it's the only side most are used to seeing when they first encounter me. Out in public, I'm generally a quiet person. Rarely ever speaking unless I have to. Part of it is due to my social awkwardness. That said, I'm capable of opening up eventually and can talk at length about things I enjoy. I'm also known for making jokes and being a bit of a dork, with mixed results. That said, even if I seem "too negative", know that it comes from my life being a depressing one, but even with that in mind, I have highs and lows like everyone else, but I happen to have more lows than I'd prefer and hoped to surround myself with people who will bring me more highs (and I don't mean drugs. See? There's a joke right there. lol).
- Personal Life: My personal life is currently extremely chaotic and I'm doing my best to hold out until it improves. My ideal personal life would be a quiet, minimalist lifestyle. I go by the philosophy of "Get rich, live broke", but not to be cheap, but to be humble. Getting only the things I need out of life without excess.
- Things I Like: Having been depressed for so long, I've forgotten how it feels to genuinely like things, but I do want that feeling to return. That said though, the things I do like are the Pokemon series (I'm stopping at Gen 10 when it comes out), Digimon, Sonic (one of my main inspirations), the Magical Girl genre, namely Sailor Moon. I did watch Tokyo Mew Mew, but dropped it due to never having the time to get back into it. I had considered watching Madoka Magica at my ex's suggestion, but in light of the break-up I can't think of that series without thinking of her, but maybe I'll pick it up on my own terms once I've healed. I'm currently watching Gushing Over Magical Girls after it dodging it for so long and have finally caught up with it (though Kiwi and Utena's relationship reminds me a lot of what I used to/could have had in my previous relationship, thus depresses me a bit). I've been really into lore building lately, and have been creating a fantasy setting with a friend of mine. Whether or not it evolves into more than a mere hobby depends heavily on the skills we'll learn and the people we might meet. More controversially, I have an interest in the lolicon and shotacon genres. If this offends you, the block button exists for a reason, but I don't want to hide that about myself for the sake of fitting in with others. I have several other likes, but I don't want this section to be too long. If you're curious about what my other likes are, my DMs are always open.
What are you looking for in a partner: I look for reciprocity, loyalty, honesty, and tolerance primarily. I also want someone who I can have genuine companionship first and foremost. I'd like to have a partner who is open to or at least tolerant of my kinks, which range from "so mundane it's barely a fetish" to "good luck finding a girlfriend, buddy". That said, none of my more extreme interests are mandatory and are generally rooted in fantasy. It should be a given that one must be able to be able to properly separate fiction and reality to be in affiliation with me and to avoid both sides feeling alienated. That also being said, I also want a proper balance between NSFW talk and casual conversation. Although I'm very "out there" with a lot of the things I'm into, I'm also not the biggest fan of conversing with people who just want to goon and do nothing else. Being too horny can be just as boring as being too vanilla, contrary to popular belief. If interests outside of porn ever arise, I'd like to be able to talk about them as freely as I would about any NSFW topic without fear of it being seen as "boring" to do so.
Also as mentioned before, I'm a creative of many talents. I used to draw, but no longer do, yet I consider myself semi-retired from drawing. I was also into making music until I hit a creative drought, but I still have my footing by way of writing and lore building as well as through using Honey Select for character creation. I also want to give voice acting a chance, which I've dabbled in on a SFW account, but I currently lack the privacy to truly commit to it. Ideally, I'd like a partner that is also a creative. That way we can inspire each other and even combine ideas together. A hobby is always more fun when you have someone to share it with.
As I mentioned before, I'm very much a dork, even despite some of my negative moments. So much so that if for example I had a girlfriend, if no such shirt exists, I'd commission for one that says "Cutest Girl in The Whole World" with an arrow pointed in her direction. Such a dorky gesture of affection isn't that far off for me, considering that in my last relationship, I did things for my ex like make a character based off of her in my Orcverse, made a Dragon-type theme team in Pokemon Battle Revolution based around her love for dragons, and I even hatched a shiny Charmander for her because her favorite Pokemon is Charizard (though I never got to gift the shiny Charizard to her). I want someone who I can be my true self with, including the dorky side of me that exists beneath the negativity.
Given how things ended with my ex girlfriend, who I knew (not necessarily dated) for a little over a decade, I also know what I don't want in a partner. I want a partner that isn't detrimentally passive. Someone that just allows life to just pass them by or lets life deal them a bad hand and not fight against it. My ex was a caretaker from her teens up to now and doesn't show much signs of wanting to leave, despite her goals requiring it. When her libido died and I offered suggestions to help her manage it, which she turned down, she didn't truly think about how it would affect me indirectly and just accepted that it was gone and wanted it to stay that way, and even expected everything to stay the same between us, despite the dynamic shift that caused, so I want a partner who considers how their individual actions may affect the relationship overall. Certain decisions one makes while single that were a "me" problem become a "we" problem when dating or even married to another person, so that should also be taken into account, and if those individual actions affect your partner, you should do your best to make it right so both parties are happy. That also being said, I want a partner who understands the importance of a sex life in a relationship where one or both partners are sexually active. I consider myself the most "down bad" person I know, but at the same time, I have enough self-control to not constantly demand sex every 5 seconds. Even with that in mind, I want to know I have a partner that is down for a good time and won't leave me feeling trapped and blue-balled in the relationship. As someone with at least some degree of empathy, I wouldn't want my partner to feel alienated from something we should both be enjoying.
When I broke things off with my ex, she found it jarring that there was "suddenly nothing" because she thought the break-up "came out of nowhere" when the signs were there, most notably when she didn't try to have her libido managed due to not thinking past how it was affecting her, so I want a partner with enough self-awareness and accountability that they're able self-reflect and ask themselves "Would doing [x] or not [y] cause my partner to leave me?". I also want a partner who is willing to fight (not necessarily literally) to keep me, as I am willing to fight to keep them. This was another fault my ex had, as she -due to passiveness- just accepted the break-up for what it was rather than do all she could to keep me, despite telling me I was her most serious relationship to the point where she could see us actually meeting and physically being together. Adding to this point, even though I don't have much to my name right now, I told her that if I could get her out from where she is now, I would, but rather than appreciate the hypothetically gesture, she instead told be that I don't have to do that and that she wouldn't leave even if she wanted to, but more jarringly, knowing my current situation, she didn't echo the sentiment that if I needed her help, she'd offer it to me. Worse still, for the WWE fans out there, when I mentioned Rey Mysterio's Hall of Fame speech where I mentioned that his wife sidelined her own career to support him. After I told her this, my ex told me "That’s not everyone though. Not everyone is able to do that for their partner. And there is such a thing as emotional support." as a response. Again, having a chance to say she'd be able to help me when I needed it, but instead opted for the bare minimum of emotional support, which I understand is important, but in some cases, is not enough. By saying "That's not everyone, though", one unfortunate way to interpret that is "I'm not gonna do that for you if you need it. Emotional support is all I'm going to give you". That said, I'm not expecting my partner to actually put everything on the line for me, but at least assure me that they're willing to provide emotional support and more, should the situation arise, as I would be willing to do the same for them.
Favorite Hobby: Drawing (formerly), Making music (formerly), Voice acting (on hiatus), writing/lore building (currently), video games (barely)
Favorite Color: Blue, but also black and red
Favorite Food: Lasagna
Kinks: Too many to count. Including one's usually have a hard "NOPE!" to. It makes dating a challenge just finding someone who will at least tolerate
Self Description (Appearance, personality, personal life, things you like, ect):
- Appearance: I'm an average height of 5'9" with a "skinny fat" build, but I'm working to build a better physique. If one were to look at me, I look like a normal person, but in reality, I have a few disabilities that are not immediately noticeable. I have scoliosis, and although I had surgery to correct it, I still have curvature in my lower back. I have disabilities affecting my right arm and hand, which I would prefer to not worsen, lest I lose my limb, but only time will tell. So far, the disability plaguing my hand is slowly taking away my ability to use my fingers and with time... my ability to draw, though I no longer do...
- Personality: Admittedly, I've been a gloomy person and it's shown a lot. It's unfortunately led people to believe that being negative is my only personality trait, but given my past and even my current history, it's not surprising. Still, it's not the only side of me, even if it's the only side most are used to seeing when they first encounter me. Out in public, I'm generally a quiet person. Rarely ever speaking unless I have to. Part of it is due to my social awkwardness. That said, I'm capable of opening up eventually and can talk at length about things I enjoy. I'm also known for making jokes and being a bit of a dork, with mixed results. That said, even if I seem "too negative", know that it comes from my life being a depressing one, but even with that in mind, I have highs and lows like everyone else, but I happen to have more lows than I'd prefer and hoped to surround myself with people who will bring me more highs (and I don't mean drugs. See? There's a joke right there. lol).
- Personal Life: My personal life is currently extremely chaotic and I'm doing my best to hold out until it improves. My ideal personal life would be a quiet, minimalist lifestyle. I go by the philosophy of "Get rich, live broke", but not to be cheap, but to be humble. Getting only the things I need out of life without excess.
- Things I Like: Having been depressed for so long, I've forgotten how it feels to genuinely like things, but I do want that feeling to return. That said though, the things I do like are the Pokemon series (I'm stopping at Gen 10 when it comes out), Digimon, Sonic (one of my main inspirations), the Magical Girl genre, namely Sailor Moon. I did watch Tokyo Mew Mew, but dropped it due to never having the time to get back into it. I had considered watching Madoka Magica at my ex's suggestion, but in light of the break-up I can't think of that series without thinking of her, but maybe I'll pick it up on my own terms once I've healed. I'm currently watching Gushing Over Magical Girls after it dodging it for so long and have finally caught up with it (though Kiwi and Utena's relationship reminds me a lot of what I used to/could have had in my previous relationship, thus depresses me a bit). I've been really into lore building lately, and have been creating a fantasy setting with a friend of mine. Whether or not it evolves into more than a mere hobby depends heavily on the skills we'll learn and the people we might meet. More controversially, I have an interest in the lolicon and shotacon genres. If this offends you, the block button exists for a reason, but I don't want to hide that about myself for the sake of fitting in with others. I have several other likes, but I don't want this section to be too long. If you're curious about what my other likes are, my DMs are always open.
What are you looking for in a partner: I look for reciprocity, loyalty, honesty, and tolerance primarily. I also want someone who I can have genuine companionship first and foremost. I'd like to have a partner who is open to or at least tolerant of my kinks, which range from "so mundane it's barely a fetish" to "good luck finding a girlfriend, buddy". That said, none of my more extreme interests are mandatory and are generally rooted in fantasy. It should be a given that one must be able to be able to properly separate fiction and reality to be in affiliation with me and to avoid both sides feeling alienated. That also being said, I also want a proper balance between NSFW talk and casual conversation. Although I'm very "out there" with a lot of the things I'm into, I'm also not the biggest fan of conversing with people who just want to goon and do nothing else. Being too horny can be just as boring as being too vanilla, contrary to popular belief. If interests outside of porn ever arise, I'd like to be able to talk about them as freely as I would about any NSFW topic without fear of it being seen as "boring" to do so.
Also as mentioned before, I'm a creative of many talents. I used to draw, but no longer do, yet I consider myself semi-retired from drawing. I was also into making music until I hit a creative drought, but I still have my footing by way of writing and lore building as well as through using Honey Select for character creation. I also want to give voice acting a chance, which I've dabbled in on a SFW account, but I currently lack the privacy to truly commit to it. Ideally, I'd like a partner that is also a creative. That way we can inspire each other and even combine ideas together. A hobby is always more fun when you have someone to share it with.
As I mentioned before, I'm very much a dork, even despite some of my negative moments. So much so that if for example I had a girlfriend, if no such shirt exists, I'd commission for one that says "Cutest Girl in The Whole World" with an arrow pointed in her direction. Such a dorky gesture of affection isn't that far off for me, considering that in my last relationship, I did things for my ex like make a character based off of her in my Orcverse, made a Dragon-type theme team in Pokemon Battle Revolution based around her love for dragons, and I even hatched a shiny Charmander for her because her favorite Pokemon is Charizard (though I never got to gift the shiny Charizard to her). I want someone who I can be my true self with, including the dorky side of me that exists beneath the negativity.
Given how things ended with my ex girlfriend, who I knew (not necessarily dated) for a little over a decade, I also know what I don't want in a partner. I want a partner that isn't detrimentally passive. Someone that just allows life to just pass them by or lets life deal them a bad hand and not fight against it. My ex was a caretaker from her teens up to now and doesn't show much signs of wanting to leave, despite her goals requiring it. When her libido died and I offered suggestions to help her manage it, which she turned down, she didn't truly think about how it would affect me indirectly and just accepted that it was gone and wanted it to stay that way, and even expected everything to stay the same between us, despite the dynamic shift that caused, so I want a partner who considers how their individual actions may affect the relationship overall. Certain decisions one makes while single that were a "me" problem become a "we" problem when dating or even married to another person, so that should also be taken into account, and if those individual actions affect your partner, you should do your best to make it right so both parties are happy. That also being said, I want a partner who understands the importance of a sex life in a relationship where one or both partners are sexually active. I consider myself the most "down bad" person I know, but at the same time, I have enough self-control to not constantly demand sex every 5 seconds. Even with that in mind, I want to know I have a partner that is down for a good time and won't leave me feeling trapped and blue-balled in the relationship. As someone with at least some degree of empathy, I wouldn't want my partner to feel alienated from something we should both be enjoying.
When I broke things off with my ex, she found it jarring that there was "suddenly nothing" because she thought the break-up "came out of nowhere" when the signs were there, most notably when she didn't try to have her libido managed due to not thinking past how it was affecting her, so I want a partner with enough self-awareness and accountability that they're able self-reflect and ask themselves "Would doing [x] or not [y] cause my partner to leave me?". I also want a partner who is willing to fight (not necessarily literally) to keep me, as I am willing to fight to keep them. This was another fault my ex had, as she -due to passiveness- just accepted the break-up for what it was rather than do all she could to keep me, despite telling me I was her most serious relationship to the point where she could see us actually meeting and physically being together. Adding to this point, even though I don't have much to my name right now, I told her that if I could get her out from where she is now, I would, but rather than appreciate the hypothetically gesture, she instead told be that I don't have to do that and that she wouldn't leave even if she wanted to, but more jarringly, knowing my current situation, she didn't echo the sentiment that if I needed her help, she'd offer it to me. Worse still, for the WWE fans out there, when I mentioned Rey Mysterio's Hall of Fame speech where I mentioned that his wife sidelined her own career to support him. After I told her this, my ex told me "That’s not everyone though. Not everyone is able to do that for their partner. And there is such a thing as emotional support." as a response. Again, having a chance to say she'd be able to help me when I needed it, but instead opted for the bare minimum of emotional support, which I understand is important, but in some cases, is not enough. By saying "That's not everyone, though", one unfortunate way to interpret that is "I'm not gonna do that for you if you need it. Emotional support is all I'm going to give you". That said, I'm not expecting my partner to actually put everything on the line for me, but at least assure me that they're willing to provide emotional support and more, should the situation arise, as I would be willing to do the same for them.
