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well, I hope you find it.
never been called a wild card xD
but I think i know what your getting at.
I just try my best to be happy. I feel like
that's all that matters, so I'm always discarding the things that makes me unhappy. even if it's something as simple as a shirt, or something like a hairstyle, or even school. I guess there's a deeper meaning, like I'm searching for happiness, so i change a lot to figure out what i like. i suppose it makes sense. only recently i found a little peace. but i can feel it running out, and fast. I think once I get away from my current situation/living area. I will find my path to happiness. including friends, etc, and everything that comes with it.. maybe.
what do you think could be calling you back?
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well, "weird" or "different" is the word I get from my parent's and siblings. I don't have it all together, trust me. I think my family is just as miserable & depressed as I am xD we all just have different way of coping with it.
Every parent wants the best for their kids. So, when I told them how I felt about school, of course they were dissappointed. I saw it, but I couldn't help how i felt. so I'd drop out for months, then go back, then repeat that cycle 5 times up to now, where I'm ready to leave again.
I have no support honestly. I do things all on my own, I would love to be family oriented and have people to depend on. but i don't, not even friends. all my friends are online ^^ but it's good because they are all amazing!
like you, my family doesn't adapt with change at all. they can't comprehend it. which is hard on me because i love change. i change every 5 minutes. a new style, a new interest, a new goal, a new everything. they don't understand.
i can get really excited/silly/hyper when i find things of interest too ^_^
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Yeah, there's all types of alternative schools now days.
The curriculumn is the same I think. it is a little more challenging. but it's still book work/busy work. that's all high school is.
I actually loved the first few months of my first year in high school. Then I grew to hate it. so I left and iscolated myself from everything for 2 years. I went back earlier this year, but through a different schooling system.
haha, the food sucks at a lot of high schools.
depending on the people or area I'm in, I can be a very social butterfly, or I'll be a quiet shut in who never leaves the house.
A quiet girl....
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It was an awkward moment for me, moreso the surprise then anything. I just wasn't sure what to say but I didn't want to be rude, or try to anyway. The girl seemed to sense my unease and gave me a pat on the head. I must've looked at her oddly or something because when I tilted my head her way she giggled softly....It made feel kind of silly. Rustling around in my coat pocket I grabbed this small notebook I'd bought a while back but never used. Who knew I'd use it like this.
*....Here, use this.*
I handed her the notebook and she shyly took it and nodded. I just hope that was okay....
*in progress*
A quiet girl....
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We just sat and ate our meal in silence with only the flickering of lanterns and the sounds of our bowls and spoons scraping to make any real noise. At that moment nothing felt all that real, like all of it was just some dream or maybe that time had somehow just stopped....Still, I could only take so much and wanted to break this silence so I looked at her after putting my empty (third) bowl down.
*....Thank you, for helping me...I don't know if it was you but ...*
I didn't even look at her as I said it...I just said whatever came to mind. It was a mess but still.
*The...food was very good too, kinda spicy but good...*
I looked and waited, I wanted to hear her voice and know it wasn't a dream but all I got was a soft smile and a nod. I wasn't sure what to think...Could she understand me, or maybe she was just shy?
*By the way, my name's Locke.....What about you?*
A long pause....I watched as the girl dropped her gaze and seemed to be thinking before suddenly getting up and quickly movng over to a small drawer behind her. After a moment of rustling around with whatever she was doing she came back and started to write soemthing down. Before I knew what was happening she quickly turned, faced me and slid this piece of paper in front of me. Looking at her and then slowly at the piece of paper I saw only one word delicately written on it across the topmost line. It was the girl's name I think, I mean I wasn't sure but that seemed right. It read...
*...Kanon? Is that your name?*
I looked at her as I asked. The girl nodded as she pointed to the word. That's when I knew for sure that this girl must be mute.
