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well i have officially reached to the point where i view myself as an annoyance and even i annoy myself. so i must sincerely apologize for annoying all of you who i have on my friends list for spamming your feed with depressed statements of the sort. probably gonna be gone for a while. maybe.

i just left that group chat. if im just being ignored then there is no point in me being there.

lmao even saying a "happy thanksgiving" in this damned group chat they still ignored me. i might as well leave this stupid thing. they wouldnt notice, why would they? they dont care about me.

my sister did this thing where she pulls cards and they tell me whats going on in my life and what my future will be like and most of them were accurate and im scared now and its changed my perspective on life and like i should actually start working on things and working hard like what

turning 18 in a month. my youth is fading faster then i expected.

when i say "go ahead and ignore it" its a subtle way of me saying "please pay attention to me" i dont know why i do that bc it just makes me more depressed when people actually ignore it and dont figure out the subtle "please pay attention to me"