i think it's impossible to miss your happiness! because after all it's your happiness! xD when you see it, you'll know it, or when you achieve it, or get to that part where your satisfied with your surroundings. or whatever it may be, everyones happiness goal is different ^^
I'm sure your not insane, haha then again aren't we all? But I really understand what your talking about. In my case, I'm not hurting anyone. every one in my house is just like me. if anything I'm hurting myself by staying here. but at the moment there is nothing i can do. there's many ways to go about Happiness. I agree.
well, I hope you find it. never been called a wild card xD but I think i know what your getting at. I just try my best to be happy. I feel like that's all that matters, so I'm always discarding the things that makes me unhappy. even if it's something as simple as a shirt, or something like a hairstyle, or even school. I guess there's a deeper meaning, like I'm searching for happiness, so i change a lot to figure out what i like. i suppose it makes sense. only recently i found a little peace. but i can feel it running out, and fast. I think once I get away from my current situation/living area. I will find my path to happiness. including friends, etc, and everything that comes with it.. maybe. what do you think could be calling you back?
well, "weird" or "different" is the word I get from my parent's and siblings. I don't have it all together, trust me. I think my family is just as miserable & depressed as I am xD we all just have different way of coping with it. Every parent wants the best for their kids. So, when I told them how I felt about school, of course they were dissappointed. I saw it, but I couldn't help how i felt. so I'd drop out for months, then go back, then repeat that cycle 5 times up to now, where I'm ready to leave again. I have no support honestly. I do things all on my own, I would love to be family oriented and have people to depend on. but i don't, not even friends. all my friends are online ^^ but it's good because they are all amazing! like you, my family doesn't adapt with change at all. they can't comprehend it. which is hard on me because i love change. i change every 5 minutes. a new style, a new interest, a new goal, a new everything. they don't understand.
i can get really excited/silly/hyper when i find things of interest too ^_^
Yeah, there's all types of alternative schools now days. The curriculumn is the same I think. it is a little more challenging. but it's still book work/busy work. that's all high school is. I actually loved the first few months of my first year in high school. Then I grew to hate it. so I left and iscolated myself from everything for 2 years. I went back earlier this year, but through a different schooling system. haha, the food sucks at a lot of high schools. depending on the people or area I'm in, I can be a very social butterfly, or I'll be a quiet shut in who never leaves the house.
haha, I hate the schools out here. But I see my little brother off to school in the mornings, also I'm in charter school/independent study. so, I do my work at home & go in to school on fridays ^^
okay! I'm looking forward to them.
yes, I am a night owl. it's gotten better
these past few weeks. but I normally am awake all night, and asleep most of the day >_>
Hm, I don't find you weird or awkward at all. Your actually interesting to talk with ^_^ just let things come naturally, and everything will fall into place i think :)
when you see it, you'll know it, or when you achieve it, or get to that part where your satisfied with your surroundings. or whatever it may be, everyones happiness goal is different ^^
you as well ~
there's many ways to go about Happiness. I agree.
never been called a wild card xD
but I think i know what your getting at.
I just try my best to be happy. I feel like
that's all that matters, so I'm always discarding the things that makes me unhappy. even if it's something as simple as a shirt, or something like a hairstyle, or even school. I guess there's a deeper meaning, like I'm searching for happiness, so i change a lot to figure out what i like. i suppose it makes sense. only recently i found a little peace. but i can feel it running out, and fast. I think once I get away from my current situation/living area. I will find my path to happiness. including friends, etc, and everything that comes with it.. maybe.
what do you think could be calling you back?
Every parent wants the best for their kids. So, when I told them how I felt about school, of course they were dissappointed. I saw it, but I couldn't help how i felt. so I'd drop out for months, then go back, then repeat that cycle 5 times up to now, where I'm ready to leave again.
I have no support honestly. I do things all on my own, I would love to be family oriented and have people to depend on. but i don't, not even friends. all my friends are online ^^ but it's good because they are all amazing!
like you, my family doesn't adapt with change at all. they can't comprehend it. which is hard on me because i love change. i change every 5 minutes. a new style, a new interest, a new goal, a new everything. they don't understand.
i can get really excited/silly/hyper when i find things of interest too ^_^
The curriculumn is the same I think. it is a little more challenging. but it's still book work/busy work. that's all high school is.
I actually loved the first few months of my first year in high school. Then I grew to hate it. so I left and iscolated myself from everything for 2 years. I went back earlier this year, but through a different schooling system.
haha, the food sucks at a lot of high schools.
depending on the people or area I'm in, I can be a very social butterfly, or I'll be a quiet shut in who never leaves the house.
we will! anytime you'd like to talk, I'm here ^_^
~ put a photo up ~
just let things come naturally, and everything will fall into place i think :)