emotionally abused but i love her

im in a relationship with this girl and i have this one issue which i dont know how to solve with her. shes maipulative and always has me proven wrong. she has anger issues and has blown countless times threatening to leave me and making me beg her where i have never threatened to end the relationship. thing is i love her dearly and even if i cant agree with her, i dont push it to threatening or go find someone else and all. not to look like the good guy but this really is an issue here. i cant push her away where as she does it whenever she gets upset. if i had ever said fk this and i deserve better, i know even if im ending it, shes still gonna be like you dont understand me and i deserve better. this all is just the jist but you get the idea, how do i keep her and push our relationship to a healthy state because this manipulation isnt the cute kind, it makes me cry and crushes my self esteem but i love her way too much to let go of her.i have tried so many times talking it out with her but its always a fuck you. last night i ended up swearing at her saying 'fuck off'' after she said ''i hope you love me'' and this is the first time i have sworn at her and i blow up rarely. we've been together for 8 months and i have blown up only less than 10 times because i dont get angry that easily. i have and still try to change for her but even if i always own up to abuse, it just makes it hard and she fails to an agreement. i'm so worried because not only i plan to keep her with me but marry her as well but i cant be proposing to someone just so they'll walk out eventually. help please :/

I can relate to this. Pm me if you want some advice on this. Or better yet I'll post(a long post) the advice when I have the time to.

Damn I feel for you dude. I'd say the relationship you have sounds toxic but I'll leave it to the capable hands of wert and ed.

Love yourself enough to demand respect from others and never be a doormat. Love in this context, is a two way street. If you feel that she does not respect you or truly love you, why fight a failing battle? Do not even think about marriage until you both know how much you love each other and never hang on just because you're afraid to lose her. It's better to lose something toxic than to let it fester while you hope in vain. It's a big red flag when you feel like you have to ask strangers online for advice. You know what to do and it may not be exactly what you'd like. But, these are just opinions, take it or leave it.

I'm going to lay it out for you as honest as I can. The way I see it you have two options here: you can lay down like a good boy and be her doormat for the rest of your life. If that's your idea of a good romantic life, more power to you. Path #2. You dump her and find somebody else. You're too young to choose the first girl that comes along your way. You have a lot of time to develop relationships with others. The longer you spend wasting your time with her, the longer you keep yourself away from meeting somebody that respects you. I was kind of in the same boat as you. I took it as much as I could and I just blew up at her one day because I was sick of the abuse. I basically gave her a big 'fuck you' and dumped her. Soo worth it in the end.